October!!

Please be my wake up call,

For real this time, as July was supposed to be that for me, but He left me with questions, with uncertainty that's why am still here.

July you were supposed to be my GREEN flag, but all I got was RED, RED that I ignored , I saw and heard everything, But I still ignored it, Then August came and introduced me to the impossible possibilities (which I didn't know at the time), of what this new chapter of September could mean, again I missed the signs. September was the warning, the opportunity to remember what May and June had brought me.

''The pretence of it all, because he never wanted anything from me! even back then!

''He just gave me what I wanted in order for him to feel good? ''Why was that?, '' you may wonder ! So do I ?''

Well I still decided to see the GREEN in the REDSEA.

But October you are my last hope, my last resort because this is not how LOVE is supposed to feel.

Not Like a ''Trap'' every-time you feel something.

RIGHT NOW, IN THIS MOMENT IN LIFE!

I can't stand you, I can't eat, I can't even look at you, But you are everywhere, every-time I open my eyes it's you.

AFTER NO CHABLIS for a while am I ready to let go and ''LIVE?''

You may wonder what ''NO CHABLIS'' means, I'll be happy to share the rest of my story.

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Love Alice Carter